This week I have been really thinking about my future and what I want to do with my career. I've come to the conclusion that Teaching is nice but it's just a job for me. I'm finally at my breaking point with being a pushover. I just can't do it much longer. I'm a crossroads but stuck all the same. At work teachers are getting laid off and no new teachers are being hired. I'm not sure where my job as a para-educator will stand in the fall but I am sure of what I'm going to do with myself in the pursuit of life, liberty and happiness. I'm going to take some business classes in the fall and over the next year earn a couple of certificates in business. I know nothing about business but I have so many ideas for what I want Rosie's Bakery to be. Although where we are right now, culinary school is not an option for me, business courses are. So that idea is keeping me content at the moment.
John has been incredibly supportive of me really pursuing my dreams. I know that he more than anyone can see how much I don't like teaching. How it is just a job for me. He keeps saying "It is your destiny!" Destiny is a broad term to use but I'll accept it. I really don't know where I would be without John. He is always always so incredibly supportive of me. We were briefly talking about this the other day and I said to him, "You realize that this is a gamble, and if I go down, you go down because we're in this together, right?" although I don't remember exactly what he said, I remember him again filling me with support and saying he's willing to take that chance with me. Even last night I was being a woman and upset for only God knows why and he said when he gets out of the Army if he has finished his bachelors he wanted to transfer his GI Bill to me to pay for culinary school. While I would never ever accept this, (and I think he knows that, because since he has met me he knows I'm all about working hard) in fact I would so much rather see him use it for graduate school for himself, I can't describe what his offer meant to me. He would be willing to hand over to me, all of his education benefits that he worked so hard for in his military time just so I could bake some cookies? But that's the thing! He is the only one who see's it the way I see it. It's not just baking cookies for me, it is happiness, joy, a hobby that I LOVE to do, life's little pleasures and what I live for. I can't describe why I love baking and dessert making, I just do. And John sees that more than anyone.
I want to mention that I do no live in the land of OOOoooo (Adventure Time Reference) and I realize that my dream of Rosie's Bakery is far off. That's okay, I want Rosie's Bakery to be like fine wine. I believe my idea will get better with age. I know that I have so much ahead of me because Rosie's Bakery even becomes a possibility, and it probably won't until I am way into my 30's or 40's but again that is okay. I know it's going to take time, I just want to plan, plan, plan, and learn everything I need to learn about baking and the business of bakery owning first.
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